Job Hunting?? *I can't think of a good title.*

       It’s already been 2 months when I started hunting jobs, But seriously, I actually don’t spent my whole time seeking for jobs. I had submitted my resumes to more than 10 companies already. Not that I wasn't able to passed with their qualifications, I actually received calls from them, giving me schedules for interview. But I always ended up not going to most of them. Most of them are calls from companies in Manila. I am residing here at La Union and when I think that I have to go there, I would regret having submitted my resume in the first place. Ah~ I remember that there is one interview that I went to. I know that I can easily get the job, but I don’t know what happened, I failed.. I know I don’t like the job after all and I shouldn't have gone there..I know my capabilities and I know that there are jobs wherein I can be able to fully utilize my abilities.. and at the same time enjoy myself.. In that way I can be productive, right?.

        Silly me.. And I’m being choosy again, I know.. it is an attitude of mine that I also hated. I wanted to work on other stuffs that are not related to the course that I took. I even took the National Licensure Exam, and was able to passed it… but I don’t want to work as a nurse.. People would say that I wasted my four years in collage.. They would even say that I should have taken “this” and “that” because you are great in stuffs like “this” and “that”. Although I know I’m capable of excelling in various areas, I want to be known for doing the things that I enjoyed to do... It doesn't matter if I will be recognized or not, for me, that’s not something that matters. I had something I want to achieve. I know what that thing is. And I am determined to reach that. I don’t want to take the paths that are already placed in front of me because they won’t lead me to my desired destination. I will be creating my own path… ~

       I’m sounds like I’m very capable, right? I’m beginning to think that maybe I should try to lower down my confidence a little. This might be the reason why until now, I still doesn't made any progress.. And because of this, God won’t let me move onward.. I’m trying to reflect on these thoughts.. But then again, I would think of my dream again.. I really wanted to be like that, I really wanted to work on those kinds of stuffs.. God that is what I really want.. Even if you won’t give me a chance to achieve it now, I will still continue finding my way..until You will get tired of my stubbornness.. You might eventually give it to me… I realized that this dream that I had now is something that I don’t want to give up after all... Maan fighting~

*lol.. I don’t want to reread this entire thing to make some corrections so if I somewhat messed up with my grammar and though organization.. gomen~.. Jaa~ oyasumi…and this is my first post with regards to my life outside fandom right?..just saying.. sweet dreams.. ♥*