Indecisiveness

I’m pretty good at saying good and kind words to almost everyone who ask me for advises, words and stuffs… Though I know for myself that I am only just good at saying such, but I can’t even do something for myself.

         Right now, I’m getting anxious over many things.. and I know exactly what to do.. to talk to him and discuss the things between us. But I’m not sure why, why I refuse to take any action for now. When he’s just there nearby.. when I can get to text him for most of the days, when I can talk to him freely and randomly about everything, except for my personal thoughts and feelings for him…

         I always got tempted to write a letter to him, telling him everything, even though I know that he already know about it… But aside from not knowing how exactly will I tell him, I’m afraid that putting everything that had happened into words will only make things more complicated, I guess.

         Maybe that’s the reason why until now, even he won’t say anything about those things…It’s the most convenient thing to do. We would just have to keep those complications within us. We would just have to suffer within. Clearing things might only make things more cloudy and vague. And I might not be able to stay this close to him. I might not be able to talk to him this much again. Things might be able to start changing again… And for that, I’m always afraid.